My niece’s pigtails were uneven today when I saw her. Even my brother commented on it, saying he needed to do them again. They just weren’t even. Drew attention to them rather than her sweet, smiling, drooling face. Her head looked off -balance, almost like she was listing to the right.
Sometimes we feel like that. A little uneven. A little off center. I tweaked my back this week, and everything has felt like that. Actions I used to take without a thought like getting out of bed have become a hardship. Pain has become a teacher, and I reluctantly bid him welcome again.
Sometimes we need take break down before we can be re-knit into a higher version of our selves.
Happiness is unraveling.
This is the time when we hold onto the promise of happiness, the knowing that if we just take a the time to unravel those uneven pigtails and redo them again, so to speak, then we’re going to be better off. We’re going to be happier.
When we are uneven and unbalanced, we simply aren’t happy, are we? We can’t be. It’s not how we are made.
So, I let myself unravel more. Slow down. Give more attention to what my body and heart are telling me. I rest. I listen.
And when it’s time, I start braiding the pieces back together again, this time with more clarity, with more attention.
When I am finished, I’ll be happier than I imagined.
What needs to unravel for you right now?
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Ava
This is my life right now. Unraveling. There has been a lot of upheaval – selling the house, moving, getting settled into a new place… The getting settled is taking a lot longer than I’d anticipated, and I feel like I’m floundering in every area – work, exercise, writing. I have to approach these things in new ways now, and to be honest, figuring out how is hard. Harder than I’d thought it would be.
Thank you for your inspiring post. It gave me the first moment of peace I’ve experienced in months.
I hope your back feels better. Take care of you!
I have never done this before, but here it is. My husband of 30 years and boyfriend since I was 17 decided that he couldn’t take my lying anymore. The thing is, he knows I don’t lie, but he twists my words. Anyway, having been through many years of depression and having therapists tell me that I needed to leave him, I now understand why. He is a bully. I always thought he loved me. Now I know and don’t know what to do with it. How could I have been in such denial for so many years. He had to have loved me at some point, right? I just can’t understand how someone could be with someone for so long and, well, I guess it doesn’t matter anymore. The problem is, we are still living together, we have two sons. He has not spoken to me, civilly, since October. I am having trouble dealing with being in the same home, knowing that I will not be spending the rest of my life with him. However, even knowing it is for the best, it hurts. So, your question, is how to unravel that? Not sure there is an answer, but I appreciate the venue to vent.
Unraveling is so unique to each of us, I have found, but support comes just when we think we can’t take it anymore. This happened to me a couple days after I wrote this post. A friend called, and boom, I had a big shift. It didn’t change everything, but I knew it was a sign I was moving in the right direction. Right now, call in that support, the clarity of your true self, and connect with others like you have here. I am praying for you now. You were brave to share this, and this sends a soul message out into the world. The other guidance I can give about unraveling is to read WOMEN WHO RUN WITH THE WOLVES as slowly or quickly as you are guided. It is another friend to show you the way only you can go. But I am cheering you on and walking next to you on my own path. Blessings and light!
Thank you